Nesting an Epiphany!
While I begin to prepare for my third child and first son, the first task on my nesting list is to clean out my closet. As I began to clean and organize my closet, I looked at all the clothes I no longer wear but keep in my possession. I asked myself why am I keeping these clothes? I can't fit most of them and the others are out of style. I even had clothes back from high school and college! That's way too long to keep anything without value. However, I started to go deeper and think, in what other areas of my life am I holding on to things that are of no value and that is clogging or cluttering up my life? As Oprah likes to say, I had my ah ha! moment and I immediately starting packing away all of these clothes to get rid of them because the clothes represented all the things I've carried in my life that have kept me from embracing the new things that are trying to come but have no space in my "closet" of life!
In some of my relationships, I've held on to things that have stifled the relationship and kept a lot of people at bay. Most of my clothes I've held on were to remind me of moments and a certain time in my life. I'm also holding on to these things so I can be reminded of a mindset I was in or how much I've grown since then. I got rid of most of these clothes because simply there was no need for them and someone else could be of use of them. I've used these clothes long enough and they have run their course with me. In addition, there is someone who actually need these clothes and will use them. I'm being selfish by keeping them in my possession just for memory sake. As Whitley from 'A Different World' would say, "relax, relate, release!" That's what I had to do. Do away with the old and make room for the new.
In retrospect, I thought about how I was raised. I lived in a middle class single parent home and money wasn't flowing like milk & honey, but it we didn't go without much. I learned to hold on to things because we didn't get new things as much as we liked. We were taught to take great care of the things we are given. I think guilt sat in as well. Not seeming ungrateful by giving away so many things I've worked hard for or others have worked hard to give me. That hit me like, wow, you keep unnecessary things out of guilt?You no longer need them, but for your psyche sake you just keep them around so that you won't have to deal with guilt. These clothes had more of a hold on me than I thought! Lol! I need to break free of this and give these clothes away and be a blessing to someone else so I can get a fresh start!
In short, I gave majority of my clothes away, but I didn't give away things that meant the most to me. There are certain pieces that are timeless and irreplaceable that I will keep to pass along to my daughters. As well as in life, I have kept the timeless and irreplaceable lessons that life has taught me. Now I can successfully grow and pass on these lessons to those who are in need of them because I've grown them in that area , my style has changed tremendously and I'm no longer in that place. I'm ready to move forward and birth this new blessing in a few months. Let go of the old so that you can make room for all things new!